Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Change Is In The Air Because My Kilter Isn't There

I had popped off an e-mail to a blogging friend ... one from way back on AOL-J (that many of you know as well) and the response I received was a bit disconcerting.
It seems this friend is going to be off line a lot more than on (from now on? forever? or for a while?) and I absolutely respect that.
I certainly didn't ask why, because if I did I wouldn't be respecting that.

And I don't want to make this about me ... but I somehow feel as though I've let this person down. Call it a gut feeling, woman's intuition or even paranoia if you will.

But the news that this blogger was going off line indefinitely (forever? for a while? from now on?) got me to thinking a bit 'harder' than I have been or usually have about my own blog. I've fallen into the trap of slacking off ... and I have contributed I am sure to the demise of the sense of community some of us feel, although I know not all of us [from AOL] feel that way.

"So," you think, "She's still going on and on and on about blah, blah, blah." On the one hand that's true, but on the other, finally some light has dawned on Marblehead and I've realized I've been neglecting my own blog for a couple of fairly simple reasons.

The first is that I still have this tiny fear that an ex-girlfriend from real time life will find me and harass me. I should just get over it. If she does. She does. Not much I can do about it except to go private, but I was unhappy private at AOL-J so it stands to reason that when the opportunity popped up for me to post publicly so-to-speak, I jumped right in.
The second is that I often feel as though I have nothing useful to offer this crowd of bloggers. It's a huge community with lots of talented writers and interesting people who find very interesting or engaging 'things' to write about.

So the dilemma becomes, "What should I write about?" I guess I haven't quite grasped the atmosphere here, although when I do get round to friends blogs, they are pretty much the same as they were before. Interesting and engaging.

I've finally figured out that I am out of kilter here ... just a bit ... but then I was knocked over today by the news that my friend (and yours) won't be on line much anymore. (forever? for a while? from now on?)

And I don't want to face a loss here again.

So I must look to my friends who are still here ... posting daily, weekly, infrequently, rarely, always ... for unspoken and unwritten encouragement.

Because I recognize that just by their being here ... they are being supportive.

What change is in the air? Well, I've been thinking about writing about what I know best .

... an old, old photo ......

and so I am going to start at the very beginning and write the story of Emily.
Will the story be in order? Probably not. But will the story be entertaining and interesting?
Oh yeah. It will.
cross posted Women On

3 comments:

Astaryth said...

w00t! Emily stories... I mean, uh, yeah, that would be nice... I'll just have to 'endure' them somehow... ;p

Missie said...

I sure hope the other blogger is okay and it's not something serious!

I'm here and will continue to plug at my blog every day.

It's not a matter of what we write about, but just the fact that we're hear saying hello to each other and being here!

Have a good day.

~ Lor said...

I too hope your blogging friend is ok. Glad to see you're still here. Your stories never bore me, so keep 'em coming! ~ L